I wish we could just suspend reality and fast forward our lives to after Julian’s surgery.
Just take me to a happy place in the future…where Julian can take up right where he left off rolling over from back to belly. He’s our strong little man. We call him a little man because of his hair. It makes him look like a little boy.
I cried this morning as I played with and fed Julian, thinking that he is so little and I wish he didn’t have to go through this.
The toughest part is going to be the waiting during surgery and seeing him following the operation. We won’t be able to hug or hold him for a couple of days until he is out of the ICU. That will be the hardest part – seeing your baby going through something hard and not being able to take away the pain. I guess that comes with the territory of being a parent.
Tonight we are going to pack a little for the hospital, try to relax and get some sleep before waking up early for our 7:30 am pre-op appointment at Children’s. We received a letter that said pre-op will include “6-8 hours for a complete and safe work-up to take place. Tests needed may include: EKG, chest x-ray and blood work. You will receive pre-op teaching and a tour of the Cardiac Intensive Care Unit and the cardiac floor. A meeting with your surgeon Dr. Sitaram Emani will also take place.”
So that’s what we’ll be up to tomorrow.